Several years ago, after taking a five-year hiatus from full-time work, I felt I was ready to return to work. Going back to work later in life is not easy, but in my case I have been blessed with terrific energy, motivation and good health and so I wasn’t worried about that.
At this stage, however, I was not ready to grab the first thing that came along. Obviously after 37 years of working, there are many jobs that have the “been there and done that” or “at my age, I don’t need to do that…” feel to them. Hopefully, over the years I have learned to work smarter and could apply any experience I’ve gleaned by choosing, getting and keeping a suitable job. When I applied for several significant jobs, I was well received in job interviews and knew I could eventually land the one I best suited for me.
My psyche must have been preparing me for this event because I had some powerful dreams which seemed to be work related, expressing my anxieties about what to do, being up to working full-time again and the effects of my efforts to go back to work but some were telling me that the prospect of working would not be a problem. Here is one of them.
I own a large house (not the actual one I was living in at the time of the dream.) A young, healthy worker comes in the house and says he wants a room to live in. I say OK, and tell him he can take the right front bedroom. Before I know it, there are two other young, strapping men just like him who are living in the room. I go over to investigate and find the number of workers has jumped to about 20. It was really a full house—full of all the workers. I tell one man to write down their names so I can keep track of them. He does. I notice that the room has suddenly expanded to look like the inside of factory. Something in me wonders if this is really still my house?
Reflecting on this dream using the dreamwork method that everything in the dream represents a part of myself, I could see that the house was my psychic home, and that the men (who usually in my dreams represent work-related issues) were energetic, healthy and ready to work. They just needed a place to stay. I found the dream comforting, letting me know I had the energy of much ready “manpower.” But something in me asked, “Is this really me? Do I want all these men here? Is this my responsibility?” The dream raised more questions than answered them but I knew I was capable of working. The real issue might be found in limiting the amount of work I take on. The dream gave me confidence.